how long til the 14th again????

It seems like when we want time to slow down, it shifts a gear and takes off.  When we wantit to hurry up and pass, the seconds, minutes, all seem to pass like days or months..haha
I am looking forward to my next appointment.
It seems like I did really well during Christmas.  i didn't gain a pound, but these lazy days of sitting at home with the kids are proving to be my demise!!!!  With nothing to do but sit in front of the TV and snack all day, I am in desperate need of something to do to pass the time.
Going birding always keeps me occupied, but with this wind, it is pointless.
A family member wrote this today on her status and I thought it was so true so i am going to pass it along!!!

People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas.-Anonymous

I hope you all have a great time ringing in your new year, and many blessing in that new year!!!

What will come of this.....

Funny I have yet to have this surgery and the opinions have already come pouring in.  Some good, some bad, and some just the talk of the un-knowing.  I am doing this surgery for me, to be able to enjoy my children.  Telling me it is the easy way out, or your gonna get too skinny...all comments that hurt, but will not sway my decision.  Some I do not take personally because I know they are said out of concern not malice.  It is funny though...your a lazy pig if your fat, and your sickly and to skinny if you lose the weight. 
I was told I will find out who my real friends are after this surgery, and the one's who just kept me as the "fat" friend.  i hope I prove them wrong, and keep all my friends.  I am happy for all that I know who have had this surgery, because I know the freedom they now have..and the prison they were in before.

I intend to keep my head held high and keep pushing on towards my goal!!!

CHRISTMAS CHEER AND GOODIES GALORE...

Well, it is the time of year all dieters dread.  So much good food and drink and several different places to go.  What to do!!!

I am not stressing though.  i will take the advice of my WL surgeon.  Sit down and eat til your full.  If you pick here and there thinking your not eating as much, you end up eating twice as much as if your just sat still and ate your fill.  I never thought of it before, but he is right.  All afternoon of walking by and picking here and there can really add up.
Also one day of enjoying yourself isnt going to totally undo what you have done up until that day.  Just enjoy and pick it up again in the morning!!
Drink lots and lots of water, a big glass before your meal...of course this if not the case if you have already had the surgery!! =)
This is a time to be joyous and happy with your loved ones, dont ruin your day worrying about the scale.  Just eat smart and enjoy!!
I hope everyone has a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
GOD BLESS AND BE SAFE!!!
my oldest wasnt in the other pic but I couldnt leave her out =>

a little bit of the superficial...

Christmas is right around the corner..I have been so darn busy.  Also on my mind is clothes and shoes I will be able to wear.  Look, I am honest...that part of this surgery appeals to me to.  I have never shopped in anything but plus size, so this is a big deal for me!!  I have a ton of high heels that I wore when I was slightly thinner, but not I cant even wear them because it kills my knees, so I am looking forward to heels again!!!!

Miley Cyrus - The Climb - Official Music Video (HQ)

                                               The words mean alot!!!!!

you tube anyone??

Since making the desision to go through with weight loss surgery, I have become obsessed with you tube.  I have watched every video with any relation to WLS!!  Be it lapband , the sleeve, or gastric.  I have watched just about every video of before and after pics montages there are out there.  Those videos amaze me.  To watch the change in  these people is amazing.  Their confidence in the video increases with every update.  To me it is like they are actually getting a new lease on their lives.  I am very intrigued in their accomplishments and their bumps in the road.  It has really helped me to have an educated view as I go into this life changing event.
If one of the surgeries might be an option for you, I would encourage you to take some time and surf through the countless videos!! 
You never know maybe I will make my own weightloss journey channel on youtube!!  =)

walk..walk..walk

As promised I am going to add some present day pics of me.  I am always behind the camera so I had no worries about my profile being caught. But now my SIL is with us, and she is a camera nut too, so she has caught me.  But I see it as a good way to see where I get in the coming months.  it is good to have something to look at and remind you of where you were!!

I am off to a good start, last night our 4-H club participated in our town's lighted parade.  TJ (my sil) decided we would walk beside the float to keep an eye on the children.  I was extremely leery, but we walked the whole thing!!  it was an estimated 2+ miles.  That doesnt seem like much since I used to do four miles a day, but I have gotten to a point where any exercise wears me out quickly. Along with that little victory, i have not had any coffee both Saturday and Sunday!!!
Well, of to start a new week...I will be here, so check in and leave a comment to let me know how your diet or exercise plan is going!

Coffee Wars!!!

Well, I make my coffee this morning and I have padlocked my creamer in the cabinet.  Black Coffee..ya..no really..ya..=(
Dr. Chang taught me something yesterday.  Coffee dehydrates you, and if you dont replenish the water in your body you get hungry....I DIDNT KNOW THAT DangIT!!
So all this time I have only been hurting my own weightloss efforts.  I drink coffee like some of you guys drink cokes!!  No more Shamrock coffee...double dangit!  I am getting one last cup today, them it is byebye.  There are just too many yummy creamers there!
Well, I am off to get all the things done I have to do today...and I will be sure to drink water.  Just remember for every cup of coffee you drink make sure you drink the same amount of water to help your weight loss efforts!!!
Will post some body shots later(so I can look back and say YAY!!!)
great day to all

SO IT BEGINS...

Well, I took the first step.  i went to my first jump start session with Dr. Chang today.  Sat about in a circle with three other overweight people listening to the wisdom of a doctor who is going to literally change our lives.  A sweet woman named Janel also shared with us her successful journey thus far....a journey that is 115 pounds lighter today!! 
Holding my breath when he spoke of the risks, but smiling when he told of the healthier lease on life.  im not going to lie...of course I am doing this surgery for me..to enjoy the things the "thin" girls enjoy..clothes excersise, and whatnot.  But I am also doing it for me for my children.  i want to enjoy my time with them while they are young for I will not get these days back, and I dont want to look back and say I missed it because I was too tired to play with them or my knees hurt to bad to get on the ground and play.  They are my real reason for this surgery.  Though the risks are there, every morning i wake up is a risk, and right now i am killing myself slowely and surely.
I dont look at this as an easy way out,  I am realistic.  I know it will still take alot of hard work and dedication on my part.  it is a TOOL.  It wont work unless I do my part as well. 
Next meeting is Jan 14th...looks like Humana will be making me do a 6 month diet regime, so we are looking at May or June.  I am ok with that, it gives me time to prepare.  He also wants me to try and lose 22 pounds before my surgery date, and since I have already been put on a diet by my physician, I will continue that
I will keep you posted with weight losses and gains through out the next month til my next meeting with him